Wisdom has been from mistakes, Failure has led to my growth, Abundance gratefully rises above the paths of my past.
Who am I ? This question is not asking me, What’s my name, marital status, or life history. These may be a reflection of Who I am, But this question goes deeper than that. I ask myself “How well do I actually know this person” Like, “Who I am underneath all the trappings and titles” “What do I see when I look at my very core”, this inner person walking around in my body doing my job and managing my life. (My True Self). I remember as a child hearing “What do you want to be when you grow up?” This never sat well with me and I discovered why. I believe the question should be “Who do you want to be instead of “What”. In reality “What” is just a role we play and may have very little to do with our true identity as a person. So how can I align my life with my True Self if I don’t know Who I Am? I believe that our ability to find meaning and purpose in this journey we call life hinges on how well we actually know ourselves. Discovering our True Self can open the door to a life that feels fulfilling and exciting. I started to think and discover about My True Self. My values- Things that matter the most to me on the deepest levels. My personal values and standards- Priorities and Beliefs. Understanding my strengths- My natural abilities that I posses and the ones I want to cultivate and develop. These are personal assets giving me a position in life. Knowing my passions- What am I passionate about? What activities and pursuits make me feel really alive. Identifying my tendencies- These often become habits either good or bad. Acknowledging my limits- Which skills or activities are beyond my ability for that time. This way I can focus my energy where its the most effective. Since I know I can improve my abilities in most areas of life, I don’t view current limitations as permanent. I’m realistic in my personal assessment. Setting my goals- Things I want to really achieve, what person do I want to grow into. Clarity was very important when I started setting my goals, this lead to action, because without clarity it can lead to confusion and inaction. I then established my direction, where my True Self will take me. Understanding All these, I then needed to have a destination to move towards, a direction. I didn’t worry about reaching my destination because reality is that its the journey that counts. So I picked a direction that represented genuine happiness and I moved towards it, and then just left life unfold. Taking time with getting to know my True Self was so important. I discovered the wonderful blends of amazing abilities and qualities I possess that’s also felt by others.
I define myself by the courage I’ve found to forge new roads, Not by how many obstacles have appeared in my path.
I define myself by the forgiveness and the faith I have found to begin again, Not by how many disappointments I’ve faced.
I define myself by how much I have loved and been willing to love again, Not by how long a relationship lasted.
I define myself by how many times I have struggled to my feet, Not how many times I have been knocked down.
I am not my pain
I am not my past
I am a unique individual that has emerged from the fire.
“Faith is being certain of what we do not see”
Genuine faith puts its letter in the mailbox and lets go- Distrust, holds on to a corner of the envelope and then wonders why the answer never arrives. Meaning- we hand over our circumstances over to God, allowing Him to work. (Psalm 37:5) “Commit your way to the Lord, trust in Him and He will do this”. He will never work until we commit. Faith is receiving the gifts God offers us. We believe in Him, come to Him, commit to Him and rest in Him. Though we will never fully realize all our blessings until we begin to receive from Him and come to Him having the Spirit of abiding. (philippians 4:6) “Do not be anxious about anything” (1 Peter 5:7) “Cast all your anxiety on Him”, Here is when we cast our burdens on the throne of grace, (our true faith) we then walk away with believing and trusting the Lord that He will take care of everything. Don’t worry about the “what if’s” or when is it going to happen or answered, move forward , looking upward in faith, believing and trusting the Lord.
Blessing to you All! In Him, Lourdes