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REST

Psalm 91 ” I am resting in the shadow of the Almighty. He covers me with His feathers. Under His wings I find refuge.”

Heavenly Father, How grateful we are for the rest that is found in Christ. You brought us forgiveness and relief and You asked us to rest in You. Thank You for the peace that accompanies this rest. Thank You for the freedom from worry. Thank You for carrying the weights that we used to carry on our shoulders, for giving us a thousand promises that become ours to claim, to grow in and to be comforted by.

Father, You have the ability, being Who You Are, to know each need in each heart and each concern in each mind. So we pause and release to You those things that have plagued us long enough. In doing so, we invite The Spirit of God to plow the soil of our souls so the seed of God’s Word can be sown, take root, and be watered in time as to produce spiritual abundance. We commit these valued moments to You, resting in You and may this allow us to be lost in wonder, love and praise. In Jesus’ Name Amen

BEING THE LIGHT OF LOVE

The world needs our power, love and energy and each of us has something that we can give. The trick is to find it, use it and give it away so there will be more. We can be lights for each other and through each others illuminations we will see the way. We live in a world that is in a state of need for gaining power against all odds. If that means, compromising on our own morals and losing all self respect in doing so… So be it! Right? Not really…  If any of our decisions and actions are a personal gain, with the “no matter what” attitude attached to it, its not just morally wrong but psychological and emotional wrong. We blame the world, the government, the officials, we literally blame everyone and everything for our problems. But have we ever thought of looking within? Have we ever thought of how we can be a positive light in this world?  Yes, there is darkness, corruption, a whole lot of wrong around us…And I agree to that. But, there is a lot of love and a lot of compassion within us, should we choose to live authentically. We can be the light not only to ourselves but for all those around us. If we choose to be the light and live a loving, caring and compassionate existence, our light will most definitely eradicate all darkness.  The way to be a candle of light is to Love. Love with all your heart and soul and everything that exists within you, rather than pull each other down on the road to power and success. Lets hold each others hands and get there together.

Opening My Heart To Love Again

I have been praying about sharing a painful time in my life and since I’m now healed from it,I am ready to write,blog and share about it.I do blog about my personal experiences, why leave this out.

A few months ago, I came out of a relationship with a guy I dated for 5 years on and off.There were a lot of break-ups and not something I can jump up and down about. I wish I can say “I want to take those times back, But the truth is, I wouldn’t change any of it simply because I learned a lot about myself in the relationship and about him as a person.I can honestly say that to this day, I have moments of heart wrenching pain, sadness that feels overwhelming, and tears that feel like they will fall forever. I often judged this pain as bad and thought to myself “I should be over this, why am I still feeling this much pain, I should be happy by now”, I start to “should” all over myself. Does this sound familiar? Whether its a broken heart or anything in life that feels challenging, so often I judged where I was versus just accepting it. This time though I at times feel pain in my heart, I think, “What do I really want in a relationship, in a partner and what is most important to me”. I started to realize that my life is precious, so I made a list to answer these questions.
1. Someone who believes and loves God.

2. Someone who will appreciate and accept me for Who I am.

3. Someone who will bring out the best in me.

4. Someone who will add value to my life.

5. Someone who loves themselves and is happy and content with their own life prior to being in a relationship. (This I say because if someone is not happy or content with their own life and or they don’t love themselves, Then this causes issues since they are seeking love from someone else to fulfill them instead of sharing their love with someone else. (I can get pretty deep on this subject, which is where I learned a lot.There is more to my list, But this is just a few.

I discovered that getting over a broken heart takes time, learning to open my heart again takes time, Its a process and its one that I need not take lightly. Loss is a big event in our lives and grieving a loss is what will help us to heal our hearts and bring us back to a place where we will be ready to love again. I remember after our break ups, I tried everything. I read books about relationships, self healing through a breakup, etc. Thinking that if I just work on myself, I will be able to heal my heart faster and call in my soul mate. WRONG! These were all just forms of looking outside of myself and thinking I needed to “fix” myself. I thought that if I would “fix” myself that I would be lovable and whatever I did in past relationships that didn’t work at the time, I would “fix” it. I would fix what was broken in me and then someone would really love me. The reality is that I had this backwards. As I went through the healing process, I kept hearing the words “You have to love yourself before you can love another or another can love you”. These thoughts swirled through my mind ringing Truth to me in so many ways, and they also brought to me a feeling that I would never find love until I fully, unconditionally loved myself. So yes I believe that we must love,take care and nurture ourselves and be in alignment with what our higher self wants. Loving ourselves is very important because when we stray from this, we will usually be presented with lessons when we don’t honor our own needs and start to give ourselves away, something will always be presented to us back to our center, even if its painful. I learned this the hard way. I was doing everything in my power to make it work. I thought if we just seek counseling together then we could fix what was wrong. Sad to say but I was in a fix myself mode for years. I don’t remember coming out of this relationship and not blaming myself for something I did/said wrong. This didn’t help me heal, this just brought on more suffering, pain and more healing. Losing someone is hard. Often times people will shut down and turn away from love because the pain endured is so intense. Sometimes I thought “I would never open to love again. I discovered we walk through life with an iron gate around our hearts thinking it will protect us. We turn to anything that will numb the pain or keep jumping from one relationship to another thinking the pain will go away (I personally know someone who has done this and it didn’t work, It caused more heart ache and more healing needed on top of the healing they ran away from). We pass each other on the street without acknowledging that we are all in pain in some form or another. When others ask “How we are and we answer “fine” or “I’m great, no stress and a lot happier”, But don’t really mean it because we don’t want others to see our pain. What I have learned through this whole process is that healing is about being vulnerable, about showing who I really am and how I am really feeling. No more hiding, no more pretending that I am okay. Telling someone close to me how I am feeling and reaching out for support, helped me to see how many people in my life do love me and that there is nothing wrong with me that I need to fix, These amazing souls reflected back to me the love that I am. When this happened, I knew I didn’t have to search anywhere outside of myself anymore to find a way to fix myself or to feel loved and my heart started to open up. So as I sit here today, I can only share with you what I have learned. I have learned that only time, patience,self nurturing,support from loved ones and acceptance of what is (even if it sucks) will bring healing. I also learned that being vulnerable is Perfect. That allowing someone to see my pain allows them to really see me and relate to me. That opening up my heart and letting someone in, is not as scary as it seems and that staying shut down just creates more pain. That each time I speak a Truth, even if its painful, my heart melts and opens just a bit every time. I am DONE with fixing myself. Fixing just tells the universe that I do not think I am okay exactly how I am. It sends out the message that I am broken, that I am not an inherently perfect, loving being. When I send out that message, what do I get? Someone that will reflect that back to me. So, what have I learned from all of the pain and broken hearts I have endured? Is that only time will take away the pain, and as I am feeling the pain, opening up to the true love inside of myself and accepting myself exactly where I am, Broken heart and all will bring me back to what is really important… LOVE

I want to thank My Heavenly Father for His lead,guidance and lessons,His amazing Love for me,Comforting me through my pain,Providing strength when I need to persevere,and protecting me under His Wings where I remained safe and secure. To my 4 wonderful,amazing boys, I’m so blessed that God entrusted me to care and raise you on my own with Him as our solid foundation. Thank you for all you have put up with during this challenging and painful time in my life. We are a team, and I must say…A Great team.To all of my wonderful friends and love ones. For walking along side with me,listening and encouraging me to press on. The lessons and experiences in this relationship were needed in order for me to discover Who I am in a relationship and for Self Awareness,it also has given me the wisdom and knowledge I now have today.

To those woman who are in a relationship, If your not appreciated for Who you are today, Remember…Don’t settle for less than God’s BEST. He will bring the perfect man in His time to you. It will be PERFECT!

I will be taking a small break to enjoy being free at last and to breath the air back in my life.

God Bless You All,
In Him,
Lourdes

Dip In The Waters Of Forgiveness

So today I find myself having to dip in the waters of forgiveness. After letting go of a relationship that wasn’t serving me or healthy for me I’m forgiving the person that has hurt me. Why you may ask? Because I know how my heart beat is. Imagine some of the arteries flowing blood to and from the heart are blocked. The pumping is weak and everything is getting congested. That’s what unforgiveness does in our soul. Its a soul toxin because it blocks us from giving or receiving love. Today God is inviting me to bathe in His waters of forgiveness and let the love flow freely again. Forgiving = releasing. This changes when we release our hurt. I imagine my hurt like dirt covering my skin and when I forgive is like the water washes it off. I just stand under the shower of forgiveness choosing to release their debt until the hurt and bitterness is washed away.

Love 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast. It is not proud. It does not dishonor others, It is not self-seeking, It is not easily angered, It keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails”